Day One: Re-invention

It's day one of my new life - I've named it re-invention, because it seemed fitting.

Day one was a success, I've conquered a few obstacles that i've had hard times with before:

1. The fear, of everything:

I was able to get my ass out of the house, and go to a job interview. I suppose, this success started yesterday - when i made myself call the person back, to set up an interview. But none the less, i walked tall with pride, and carried a big fucking stick. (no, not literally a fucking stuck... Using the word "fucking" as to describe the size of the big stick... as in, it was a fucking big stick, not it was my fucking stick)

+1 Bravery Skills

2. The fear of eye contact:

I was able to have a conversation with the interviewer, with eye contact. I was able to look at her eyes while i sputtered out full sentences. Something, I've had a VERY hard time with before.... The fear of eye contact, runs deeper than any of these problems i have, i can't quite explain it.

+1 Confidence Skills

3. The ability to talk without stuttering:

I was able to talk, not only with eye contact, but without stuttering either - which is amazing when you put with it, my fear of eye contact. I did a good 'un by being able to talk to her without stuttering, and with eye contact

+1 People Skills

4. The ability to talk to strangers:

At first, i had no clue where to go for this interview, so what did I do? Instead of calling a friend who works there to figure it out... I marched myself to the main office and asked the purdy lady where to go. And surprise! She didn't bite my head off for being a human too.

+1 People Skills, +1 Bravery Skills

5. The fear of uncertanty:

Today, I had no idea where to go - I've only been there a few times before, I had to figure out where to go, and I actually smiled at myself when i remembered there was another door to the building, instead of getting upset that i wasn't "doing it right" or that someone would have seen me go back and into a different door

+1 Explorer skills

6. Being away from the house:

Yeah... easy one right? I was able to leave the house, and when it was done... I went for a nice drive, not straight back to the house, so i was away, and was able to do so.

+1 Explorer skills (I would, bump this up to two Explorer skills, but i didn't go to the store to get anything to drink... I was content with my tea.)

7. Walk Tall:

This one is more of an achievement, i walked tall and with pride in who I was, not holding my arm, afraid of people looking at me. Of course, I did not pass any people so i couldn't have smiled or made eye contact or said "hello" or anything... SO oh wells, one achievement is good enough.

+1 Confidence Skill

8. Fear of Fear itself:

Before I left, i went into the bathroom and I looked myself in the eyes and told myself to stop being stupid, to just do this, and get it over with... I even said "It's time to nut up, or shut up"

+1,000,000,000,000 Nerd Points.

+1 Confidence Skill

Here's my Stats of day one:

Bravery: 2

Confidence: 3 

People Skills: 2

Explorer: 2 

Nerd: 1,000,000,000,000

Items aquired:

A big fucking stick

So, It looks like I'm still a freaking large nerd.